Living a nightmare.
I've had a recurring nightmare for the last eight years or so. In it, I am back in high school. Miserable, boring, lonely high school. The uncomfortable desks are too small for me to sit at. Everybody is staring at me. The teacher drones on in an incomprehensible monotone. The air is hot and stuffy.
I panic and try to say, "I shouldn't be here. I've graduated. I have a diploma. I have all the knowledge I need from here." My voice comes out tiny and strangled, and nobody listens to me. I head for the door, but there is only a maze of hallways, classrooms full of glassy-eyed students, and droning teachers.
This is a horrible dream. I always wake up unsettled and carry that same lack of confidence I had in high school around for days following this dream.
I had an epiphany today. I went back to school. Now I am living my nightmare. My classes are pointless review of what I have been studying for the last TEN YEARS! I don't need another diploma. I have experience in the field I am going to school for. I could have challenged three out of the four classes I am taking right now and gotten full credit for them.
College has been a monumental waste of my time. I have gotten neither the knowledge nor the social contact I had hoped for by returning to school. The internet is a far more valuable learning tool than textbooks and disinterested community college professors.
Now I'm going to go surf the net and learn something.
I panic and try to say, "I shouldn't be here. I've graduated. I have a diploma. I have all the knowledge I need from here." My voice comes out tiny and strangled, and nobody listens to me. I head for the door, but there is only a maze of hallways, classrooms full of glassy-eyed students, and droning teachers.
This is a horrible dream. I always wake up unsettled and carry that same lack of confidence I had in high school around for days following this dream.
I had an epiphany today. I went back to school. Now I am living my nightmare. My classes are pointless review of what I have been studying for the last TEN YEARS! I don't need another diploma. I have experience in the field I am going to school for. I could have challenged three out of the four classes I am taking right now and gotten full credit for them.
College has been a monumental waste of my time. I have gotten neither the knowledge nor the social contact I had hoped for by returning to school. The internet is a far more valuable learning tool than textbooks and disinterested community college professors.
Now I'm going to go surf the net and learn something.
posted by E at
8:19 PM
2 Comments:
I'm in the same bat as far as higher education. I either feel as though my classes are utterly useless or unnecessary review. The other end of the spectrum is a class that seems initially easy, but ends up being needlessly complicated. Curse you chemistry! I remember science being so much easier fifteen years ago.
That's Norby's fault, number 2. A great teacher can spoil you for life, sort of like a great lover. The difference is that you can make a so-so lover better, while you're stuck with a bad teacher. Oh, well. I guess I wouldn't change that, since formal education has a limited time in one's life and sex is a lifelong pursuit.
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